Boredom is a mask that frustration wears. What better place to savor the
truth of Fraa Orolo’s saying than a penance cell of the Warden
Regulant? Some cunning architect had designed these things to be to
frustration what a lens was to light. My cell did not have a door. All that stood between me and freedom was a narrow arch, shaped in the
pointed ogive of the Old Mathic Age, framed in massive stones all
scratched with graffiti by prisoners of yore. I was forbidden to stray
through it or to receive visitors until the penance was complete. The
arch opened onto the inner walkway that made the circuit of the Warden
Regulant’s court. It was trafficked at all hours by lesser hierarchs
wandering by on one errand or another. I could look straight out across
that walkway into the vault-work of the upper chancel, but because of
its parapet I could not see down to the floor two hundred feet below
where Provener was celebrated. I could hear the music. I could gaze
straight out and see the chain moving when my team wound the clock and
the bell-ropes dancing when Tulia’s team rang changes. But I could not
see the people.
On the opposite side of the cell, my view was better. Framed in
another Mathic arch was a window affording a fine view of the meadow.
This was just another device to magnify frustration and hence boredom,
since, if I wanted, I could spend all day looking down on my brothers
and sisters strolling at liberty around the concent and (I supposed)
discussing all sorts of interesting things, or at least telling funny
stories. Above, the Warden Fendant’s overhanging ledge blocked most of
the sky, but I could see to about twenty degrees above the horizon. My
window faced roughly toward the Century Gate, with the Decade Gate
visible off to the right if I put my face close to the glass. So when
the sun rose the morning after Tenth Night, I was able to hear the
close-of-Apert service. Looking out my cell’s doorway, I could see the
chains move as the water-valves were actuated. Then by stepping across
the cell and looking out my window I was able to see a silver thread of
water negotiate the aqueduct to the Decade Gate, and to watch the gate
grind closed. Only a few spectators were strewn about extramuros. For a
little while I tortured myself with the idea that Cord was standing
there forlornly expecting me to run out at the last moment and give her a
goodbye hug. But such ideas faded quickly once the gates closed. I
watched the avout take down the canopy and fold up the tables. I ate the
piece of bread and drank the bowl of milk left at my door by one of
Suur Trestanas’s minions.
Then I turned my attention to the Book.
Since the sole purpose of the Book was to punish its readers, the
less said of it the better. To study it, to copy it out, and to memorize
it was an extraordinary form of penance.
The concent, like any other human settlement, abounded in nasty or
tedious chores such as weeding gardens, maintaining sewers, peeling
potatoes, and slaughtering animals. In a perfect society we’d have taken
turns. As it was, there were rules and codes of conduct that people
broke from time to time, and the Warden Regulant saw to it that those
people performed the most disagreeable jobs. It was not a bad system.
When you were fixing a clogged latrine because you’d had too much to
drink in the Refectory, you might not have such an enjoyable day, but
the fact of the matter was that latrines were necessary; sometimes they
clogged up; and some fraa or suur had to clean them out, as we couldn’t
very well call in an outside plumber. So there was at least some satisfaction in doing such penance, because there was a point in the work.
There was no point at all to the Book, which is what made it an
especially dreaded form of penance. It contained twelve chapters. Like
the scale used to measure earthquakes, these got exponentially worse as
they went on, so Chapter Six was ten times as bad as Chapter Five, and
so on. Chapter One was just a taste, meted out to delinquent children,
and usually completed in an hour or two. Two meant at least one
overnight stay, though any self-respecting troublemaker could bang it
out in a day. Five typically meant a stay of several weeks. Any sentence
of Chapter Six or higher could be appealed to the Primate and then to
the Inquisition. Chapter Twelve amounted to a sentence of life at hard
labor in solitary confinement; only three avout had finished it in 3690
years, and all of them were profoundly insane.
Beyond about Six, the punishment could span years. Many chose to
leave the concent rather than endure it. Those who stuck it out were
changed when they emerged: subdued, and notably diminished. Which might
sound crazy, because there was nothing to it other than copying out the
required chapters, memorizing them, and then answering questions about
them before a panel of hierarchs. But the contents of the Book had been
crafted and refined over many centuries to be nonsensical, maddening,
and pointless: flagrantly at first, more subtly as the chapters
progressed. It was a maze without an exit, an equation that after weeks
of toil reduced to 2 = 3. Chapter One was a page of nursery-rhymes
salted with nonsense-words that almost rhymed—but not quite. Chapter
Four was five pages of the digits of pi. Beyond that, however, there was
no further randomness in the Book, since it was easy to memorize truly
random things once you taught yourself a few tricks—and everyone who’d
made it through Chapter Four knew the tricks. Much harder to memorize
and to answer questions about were writings that almost but did not
quite make sense; that had internal logic, but only to a point. Such
things cropped up naturally in the mathic world from time to time—after
all, not everyone had what it took to be a Saunt. After their authors
had been humiliated and Thrown Back, these writings would be gone over
by the Inquisition, and, if they were found to be the right kind of
awful, made even more so, and folded into later and more wicked editions
of the Book. To complete your sentence and be granted permission to
walk out of your cell, you had to master them just as thoroughly as,
say, a student of quantum mechanics must know group theory. The
punishment lay in knowing that you were putting all of that effort into
letting a kind of intellectual poison infiltrate your brain to its very
roots. It was more humiliating than you might imagine, and after I’d
been toiling on Chapter Five for a couple of weeks I had no difficulty
in seeing how one who completed a sentence of, say, Chapter Nine would
emerge permanently damaged.
Enough of the Book. A more interesting question: why was I here? It
seemed that Suur Trestanas wanted me removed from the community for as
long as the Inquisitors were among us. Chapter Three wouldn’t have taken
me long enough. Four might have done it, but she’d given me Five just
in case I happened to be one of those persons who was good at memorizing
numbers.
Friday, August 18, 2017
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